I went to bed at 8pm last night. Friday night. And still managed to sleep through three alarms this morning. That were intended to get me coffee. Before an unreasonably early cross country meet. I spent an hour debating with myself. Yesterday morning. While playing Solitaire Cash. Because that’s how I self-medicate. When I can’t … Continue reading Brain Camp
My Awkward Self
9 To 5
I’ve never heard anyone actually tumble out of bed and stumble to the kitchen. Until Aggressive Walker moved in upstairs. I thought Dolly was just exaggerating shit. Like I do. But no. 9 to 5 is a real condition. And my neighbor has it. He falls. A lot. At least three times a day. I’m … Continue reading 9 To 5
Colds Are No Longer Common
I’m dying. “You’re not dying.” It feels like I’m dying. This is definitely what death feels like. “I doubt that death feels like that.” I finally understand what men have been experiencing for thousands of years. I called in sick to work. It was supposed to be a mental health day. Because even though we’ve … Continue reading Colds Are No Longer Common
Aggressive Walkers
I've got new neighbors upstairs. I tried to tell Ghost the story this morning. About my new neighbors. But he interrupted me. So he doesn't get to hear the story. Or any stories now. For a suitable story quarantine period. Leo does not like to be interrupted. But I do need to tell the story. … Continue reading Aggressive Walkers
Social Anxiety Coping Skill
Had my therapy appointment yesterday. With my therapist who I will refer to as “they.” Because I haven’t figured out their pronouns yet. And I refuse to ask. Because it’s my therapy. And I only want to talk about me during my therapy. And they haven’t asked my pronouns yet either. So I damn sure … Continue reading Social Anxiety Coping Skill
Anxiety. Apparently.
My watch just yelled at me. To get my ass out of bed. And move. It’s 8am. On Saturday. So fuck your judgement, watch. But also I think it’s less about the hour and more about the fact that I went to bed at 9pm. And possibly 11 hours of lying in bed is a … Continue reading Anxiety. Apparently.
I’m Doing The Best I Can
I just stood. For a solid two minutes. Outside of my apartment building. Just...waiting for someone to come open the door. These mother fuckers be running in and out of this building all hours of the day and night. But when I need one of them to come open the door. Suddenly they all wanna … Continue reading I’m Doing The Best I Can
Puppies and Heavy Objects
I just got angry at someone. For pulling into the parking lot at work. At the same time as me. And this person didn’t even try to speak to me. It was just the threat of forced socialling. At 7:30am. That triggered my anger response. I continue to run through the standard 2020-2021 educator cycle … Continue reading Puppies and Heavy Objects
Photo Accuracy
"Did you...put a picture of yourself...in my office?" Huh? I mean, I'm a Leo and all. So it’s not a crazy question. It’s not entirely outside the realm of possibility. But no. I did not... "Hey! Did you put a picture of you in my mailbox?" *sigh* No. No, I did not. "Hey! Anyone want … Continue reading Photo Accuracy
Apartment Thoughts
Day Four of apartment living. What, exactly, does one use to clean a gym floor. I kept thinking that my shoes were wet. Somehow. Because of the squeaking. But then I remembered that I live in a gymnasium. Which honestly feels pretty appropriate for a pandemic. But also, I’m getting my second vaccine today. So … Continue reading Apartment Thoughts
Shine My Way 